Well last week it was a ditzy. Hope reigned supreme for something which was totally not for me.. yet sometimes, the mind does not see any reason. The mind just looks for something that seems good but well in effect it really does not make sense.. Such is the mind.. and sometimes this body also goes along with it..
And thats how we have experience.. 
The mind has settled down again with a deeper resolve to find that elusive sense of attaining something which keeps changing as the sun comes up and goes down.
But the mind does not relate to an empty space for a goal. Why is it always that the mind keeps reaching out for something tangible for us to live for ?
Isnt it enough that we have today and we have enough for today.
Well practically speaking, it would be silly not to plan.
But planning brings forth aspiring, aspiring leads to cherishing which leads to the build up of ego which makes sure we are always on the run.
Socially, we have to be on the mode of addition, friends, marriage, family, and all that goes with being in a society.
Professionally, its all about the elusive and often jumping the all golden ladder of reach.. which keeps us on our toes, in turn making us forget what we have today.. is actually enough..
Then if we stand still – amidst the whole ongoing of social activity chaos around us…and reach for silence, emptiness and nothingness, we find that inner peace.. but can we stay there…
It seems impossible with the buzz of the chaotic activity around one and then there is the noise of climbing ladders…
A little green patch with a tiny house with a nice garden and some animals is the dream whereas… here one is.. grappling with the reality of being still which is at the risk of being shoved as the tornado of humanity forces one to get back to the eye of that storm where all the high is… for a shirt second but yet its so thrilling… so tempting and so beckoning..
I remember when I came to the big city someone whom I respect a lot told me that I had to be aware of riding the tiger.. if you fall, you will be eaten if you dont, the stress of riding it will kill you.. its unstoppable..
Well I refused to ride the tiger.. but searching for a ride that is sedate yet and has a good view.. and can carry me well to my grave… with a smile in my face….
