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Happy New Year :) and looking back at 2011

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Well Hello Dear Blog and a very Happy new Year to you. Its been a while since I reflected here.. I was thinking I will make a postathon out of the posts that I have been meaning to write for the past few months. lets see how this goes.

The Year 2011, I Dedicate it to the Fool who has taught me so many wonderful lessons.. And I think I will carry this spirit through this year

The Fool is numbered 0, the number of unlimited potential, and does not actually have a specific place in the sequence of the Tarot cards. The Fool can come either at the beginning of the Major Arcana or at the end. The Major Arcana is often considered as the Fool’s journey through life and as such, he is ever present and therefore needs no number.

The Fool is shown at the beginning of his journey with unlimited potential. The sun rising up behind him represents the beginning of his journey. He is facing north-west, the direction of the unknown. He is looking upwards, toward the sky, or Spirit. He is about to step off a cliff into the material world but is he prepared? He has all the tools and resources he needs in the bag on his staff but he has not opened the bag yet. The white rose in his left hand represents purity and innocence. He has a guardian in the little white dog who will protect him throughout his journey but who will also push him to learn the lessons the Fool came here to learn. The mountains behind the Fool represent the realms of Spirit that he has just left and will spend his life trying to regain.

One of my main services is to work with people and people have taught me a lot this past year and a half…

Some of the worst lies that I had to listen to with a deadpan face. But I could not help laugh at their creativity.

” My grandmother is dying.. I need to get an early relieving letter as I have to visit her every weekend from Bangalore to Calcutta” and he professed that he could know me by reading my blog… I was left at wondering at his stupidity…

” I married a Hindu boy and my husband is scared that he will be converted to a Muslim and has taken a tranfser to run away from it all”

The words : “Trust me” !!! actually scares me now.. Hahahah !! After this one soul actually went on to do everything that is the anti-thesis of Trust me.. LOLOLOL…

The above topped the rest..of the bits.. Had some long posts on this on my mind.. but will keep it to this..

Really people, I think, its ok to be straight when one wants to leave the company… LOL… We have also left organisations without a murmur… and I remember telling

them the very truth that I wanted a change.. I mean how bad can it be ?

One of the worst interviews of the year, I have taken :

On asking about achievements : ”Going to Kerela and getting drunk, passing out, looking here and there and here and there and thats it..”

On asking about his weakness : ” when I sleep I dont get up.. ”

On asking about what he does when he gets bored : “I watch parallel cinema” and the following explanation was equally wierd..

So peoples who are looking for a job, do come up with some intelligently honest answers.. it need not be perfect but it has to be related to your marketing yourself since the competition in the market is very strong… if you dont ace it, someone else will…
Sometimes, I also think that my life is like a movie… hahahah.. The more I avoid drama, the more it evolves around me.. Sheesh..

From being the victim of a conspiracy theory at work, to being attacked in the form of a coup from some “intelligent aliens” who think I am some alien who they have to destroy… Sigh… I had it all in year 2011…

Karma is a bitch…. I think… and well I love this… What goes around, also comes around… and I am just an observer now..

But jokes apart… its been a very educating and a fulfilling year.. I must be grateful…

For a wonderful team that I have today. I love working with them.. Specially after all the dirt has been removed… not by me but by themselves..

If intentions are good and your purpose is strong and serving your people, and focussed on business, leadership is strong and un wavering… and all of it majorly because of the support of a strong, high achieving individuals , every 30 plus of them… who make every moment I spend at work… very enriching… I could not have overcome my challenges without their support… and for that I am thankful… and I hope I have their continued support…

Its easy being a manager but to be a leader… and that too without a title… is what I want to be….

Workwise, I feel I have grown in one year what I would have grown in 3 years. So well no regrets only gratefulness…

2011 also saw me reflecting on my friends… some which I wanted to keep some which I wanted to just let go.. Like everything, somethings just are not meant to be… and no matter how hard one tries.. it is just ok to let it hang in that period of time where it is supposed to be…the memory is loved and respected… I felt this year that in many ways, moving on has finally a meaning..

I used to always think… what is so big deal about moving on… why cant I have my past as well as my present and create my future… well, not with everything..

Today I know that to me is that what importance I gave in the past and what served me very well before does not serve me at all..

It sounds selfish when put like that… but in a weird way it makes sense..

Like in learning, I started with learning COBOL.. and C and C++ and though I dont use the learning always stands me in good stead.. does not mean, I will start programming in COBOL…

So yes, I have some really good friends who I can reach out too for which I am grateful and resolved some questions of the not so really required souls… wishing them well and moving on… it feels free…

I cherish, the lunches and coffees with friends. I always feel empowered meeting like minded souls from whom I draw so much inspiration. I would love to have more souls like them in my life.. I do feel thankful for their presence … everyday.. good friends are always there… no questions asked… and that’s the most valuable thing I cherish..

On my spiritual journey, I thought 2011 taught me lesson via the very mundane… it was the keyword…. what I would not give importance to made me use my focus on every small moments of thoughts and my inner focus had me observe the same with great interest… thus giving simplicity a new meaning..

Completed my NLP Master Practitioner Workshop finally. I was actually thinking, my silly requirements which needed to be fulfilled would not help me make it.. but it did. I loved the learnings and its a beautiful technique, which I would like to explore more..

Tolerance was another lesson which I like to think I am learning.. And its nice being still and letting behaviours evolve around me and I focus only on what is the positive intention… thus finding the route of Karma as well.. If one sees the positive intention behind a particular behaviour, its easy to be compassionate and removes the feeling of judgement and ego and provides a very objective.understanding.. However, I realised this but practising this is not easy… but not impossible either… The good part is that its easy to move on… with much more useful things in life..

Looking forward to discovering more and more and sharing the same here.. in this space this year. Have some objectives which I want to achieve. Hopefully it will be fulfilled..

And last but not the least, I am glad the last year, I spent minimum time online and maximum time offline.. In fact I am getting more and more detached with Facebook and Twitter and prefer rambling in my space.. maybe this would be the year, I would delete my Facebook account altogether.. LOL .. Social presence is not all great as its made up to be. I would like to be anonymous as well.

I achieved a lot of reading in 2011. In fact I think I did a lot of that.. Its a different world I can escape to… anytime…

Loads of souls passing on the last year.. hope it will be better.. this year around..

Among many things, I think that it has been a very interesting year…

Looking forward to more writing and more reading…. and here I am …. opening my doors to opportunity… life… possibilities….creation… love…. compassion… wisdom… knowledge… joy…. contentment….

2011, Life, reflections

23Oct

Anger : how much does it pay ??

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Many a times, there are situations in life where we do not have control over the events and that leads to frustration and anger. Its all well to vent it out to people who can take it.
But to fritter it here and there with no real outcome in mind.. Sometimes just adds up to the tension which is already there.

While watching Big Boss 3, I found that Kamal Khan took things too far.. To get publicity and footage out of that show.. And anger was used as a tool to further his cause.. Thinking that this is what the public likes to watch.. Well who knows.. Some do like it.. But to some its just another fish fight.. Which one would like to avoid.

Working with people, one of the worst side effects is to be held responsible for actions which adults in their full senses take. When an adult is sure of what he or she wants, even if it looks pretty stupid to the world, it might make loads of sense to them who have decided on a path.

The wisest thing to do is to recognize that we are human and we are allowed our errors and the only bit that we can control is ourselves and no one else. Not your spouse, not your children, not anybody.
Everyone has a right to their opinion and everyone has a right to decide how they want to live.

Now if this works for them, so be it, if it does not, well we need to think and step back.

Forcing circumstances to happen because its not reaching up to the social standards is sometimes an illusion and sometimes does not do anything for the cause that we all are fighting for various reasons.. And the point is that for different people the result is different.

What matters is the person for whom the cause is being fought.
Washing dirty linen in public, throwing angry words, or doing something drastic, really beats the very purpose of the cause..

The cause is lost and what remains are the charred remains of the psyche and bitterness to spread around.. And of course how it affects the near and dear ones are another matter altogether.

Its time to be free of judgmental and social bias and live and let live.. And move up and on in your path.

Can we count how much it cost us or how much we spent by being angry and shredding blame all over..

Being a person who is quick to anger, this aspect seems to be knocking at my door very often. And I have to find creative ways to fight this. Its not easy specially when the ego takes a kick, when its unfair and when we are down.. But its wise to use this very thing in a constructive manner.

I remember , when I was a kid, I first learnt that I could get relief from the very dark anger that was inside me was by throwing things.. And while it appeased the beast inside me, it would make me feel terrible to ruin objects that would be dear to me. Then I came up with this idea of shredding paper.. And well it worked.. So I kept a ready supply of newspaper to shred when I blew my top.

My parents were at a loss… I shudder to think what a monster I would have been at those times.

As I grew older and none the wiser, it affected the relationships that I would hold dear. Not acquiescing to the beautiful world of forgiveness, it was only anger that made me think I was a survivor.. Little did I know that in this path, there was only loss and no gain..

Now, my mantra is what you cannot fix, let it be..
It will sort itself out.
Sometimes, its ok to be angry as long as you are constructively diverting it.. With any activity that soothes the brain.. Gardening, house cleaning, running, folding clothes.. Anything..
The most important thing to remember is that we are dancing to the music that is played by the monkey EGO which loves to see us clown around in our anger. The ME in us rises to such a high that it fuels all the ripened triggers which justifies the ANGER in us and in us being angry..

The big picture here is that we have to have peace of mind and what is our main priority in life.
Yourself ( first), family, near and dear people around you..

Heck !! is it worth losing it ??

Sometimes it is … sometimes it just does not matter..
What matters is YOU.. What are you doing to be YOU..

Anger does NOT definitely serve any cause..
It just muddles it !!

Till we muddle ourselves out of our puddles… have a good weekend !