The circle opened with one death, and I have been walking on a tightrope since then. Following that, one event led to another somewhere making connections out of strange conincidences and then culminating in the passing of another soul. Is the circle closed or is there more to come.. ? I wait with bated breath….

I do not want to sound morbid bykeeping on posting about death but I want to convey that an end also means another beginning. And yet again, the journey is what matters.

It  has been proven to me time and again, that the best laid plans do not happen if events are meant to have a different path rather than the one planned. So it was with our long  planned holiday plans. Something more powerful was at work and well, it just did not stop us from traveling but it totally took away our most loved element, our Whitefeather. Accidents are either fortunate or unfortunate… in terms of causalties but I would say that Oct 30th was the most fortunate day of our lives as we escaped a bad incident on the highway. Fortunate because everything that followed lead up to close the aftemath of the incident very smoothly with very helpful people and services.

For that I know I am extremely grateful. In fact, I have been and always will be grateful for every moment that I breathe. I know its luck on loan. And I hope this lasts. No dear Lord, I am not tempting fate, just letting you know how much I need you every moment in my life..

Yesterday, I had to pray for another little soul who was struggling with a weak heart. And its has been a very slow and painful journey for the family.

When an event stretches and overlaps events which keeps testing us, I wonder when the tide will shift. I spent this whole week re-reading the Mahabharata – ( Devdutt’s version – Jaya,An Illustrated Retelling of the Mahabharata) and it kind of grounded me with some thoughts that no matter what, sometimes we need not question why events happen. It has to happen for because there is some reason and we have to pass through it whether we are willing to or not. And yes in some way or other I take responsibility for the events that pass by.

There are some lines which have made me think : (Excerpts from Krishna’s discourse to Arjuna)

The flesh exists to direct you to the soul. For the flesh enables you to experience all things temporary – your thoughts, your feelings, your emotions. The world  around it is temporary. The body itself is temporary. Eventually, disappointed of all things temporary, you will seek permanence and eventually discover the soul. You grieve for the flesh now Arjuna, without even realizing the reason it exists.

Your ego clings to things that grant it maximum comfort. The purpose of life then becomes the pursuit of comfort generating states, the shunning of fear generating states.

The external world is like the flesh, by nature transient and ever changing. Governed by the laws of space and time. It fluctuates between three states : Inertia, agitation and harmony. No matter how hard you try, Arjuna, the ones you love will die, either on the battlefield or in the palace, all things you shun and disapprove will come to your life, again and again. War and peace will alternate like joy and sorrow, summer and winter, flood and drought.

Changes in material world are not random. They are essentially reactions of past actions. No event is spontaneous; it is the result of many past events. This is Karma. The events in your life are the result of your past deeds, performed in this lifetime or the ones before. You alone are responsible for it. Such is the law of Karma.

Have faith in the existence of the soul. Accept that nothing happens without a reason. Accept that all experiences have a purpose.

So well, so many events are passing by and most of it is not pleasant and is full of aspects that one does not want to ever know or would like to associate with and yet here I am… waiting patiently (the ego slowly getting frustrated, the soul KNOWS that I have to be here.. in this moment for a reason)  And I am waiting for the winds of change.. the sparkle of the lights and fireworks… to bring forth some semblance of change accepting that the change is also temporary, yet the events that make the soul happy is definitely something to look forward to if I have accepted the state of inertia….w ith a lot of faith… and hope that things will turn around for all the souls who are going through a difficult time..