A difficult time

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Durga Puja is a time, which I always look forward to. Its a time which I associate to get back to my roots and generally always feel happy to be with the divine mother.. I can spend hours sitting looking at her beautiful face and swinging inside to the Dha (drums) but this year, I am missing out on Puja as I am still in mourning and just when I thought that I would be ok,  I was blasted with little memories of  Ma and Durga Puja and my heart broke.

I remember Ma being very involved in Puja. Right from Mahalaya, she would make sure I got up early and we would hear the Chandi Path over the radio and welcome the day with devotion. Then, as she would go about her daily routine chores, she would tell me stories of Parvathi and Shiv and how Durga would come to visit her parents place and the story behind it.

All the activities associated with Pujo, shopping, offerings for  the Devi and  till the last day, it would be my mother’s time. Me and my Dad and my aunts would just follow her instructions.  Dad being a non idol worshipper would support her and make it happy time for her. Special dishes would be prepared at home till the time she was active in the kitchen..

So many memories, so many impressions, so many conversations, the past few days have been a tough walk down memory lane and specially feeling the void since she is being missed a lot, as she always initiated the puja spirit. And it  was as if we rode the wave of her devotion.

Its like a movie for me, every moment passing by in frames and when the movie ends, the void that leaves behind is so vast that I keep sinking into it… without much hope of getting out of it..

Guess thats natural and another human condition… and its diffcult.. so much so that I am wishing the Pujo passes by soon…in a blink..

I thought writing down would help me out a bit and hence this blog post…

I also believe, I have to be in this experience as its part of the grieving process… and its not something I can run away from.. so here I am… swimming, reaching out.. to the shore… and knowing she is there right beside me… smiling.. and prodding me on… telling me that its ok… its fine…its part of living.. its part of Maya.. its part of growing…..

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In a state of continuation

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First something which I really liked reading…

Somewhere : @ E E Cummings

somewhere i have never traveled, gladly beyond
any experience,your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near

your slightest look easily will unclose me
though i have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skilfully,mysteriously)her first rose

or if your wish be to close me,i and
my life will shut very beautifully,suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending;

nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility: whose texture
compels me with the colour of its countries,
rendering death and forever with each breathing

(i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens;only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody,not even the rain, has such small hands

And to end would like to share two videos of the Aarti we went to during Durga Puja.


And heres another one..

Have a good week. :)

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My favorite time of the year

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Well, Durga Pujo is undoubtedly my favorite time of the year.

Right from when I was a child who could grasp the meaning of festivities.. this is one time of the year which used to make me feel very content and extremely blessed.

Mahalaya would be the time when we start getting excited and joyful at the oncoming of Pujo.

It would bring forth holidays and then my mashis ( aunts) getting excited and welcoming the Pujo.

Back home in Shillong, it was a time, all the mashis would get together and they would chatter and natter on what they would get this Pujo. And who will wear what on which day.

As a child, Ma would take me to the pandal in the morning for Pushpanjali. I would see my classmates there too. We used to gather mostly at Ramakrishna Mission to pay our respects to Ma Durga.

I would listen avidly to stories told by my parents on how Ma Durga would be coming home this time. There is a significance to every mode she uses to come to her parents home. I personally loved her story and her strength of character and believed in her energy  more than anything…

Today when I explore different paths of healing and learning, I am not surprised that her form is present across all cultures.

I remember I had a dress for the day time and for the night time.. it used to be fun..

We used to share between friends how many idols of Ma Durga we saw..

As we grew, Pujo used to be a landmark of our progressive youth..

It was kind of Sunday church where we would wear new clothes and preen around. And the food is awesome.. we would get to eat all kinds of food during this time. :)
Here is something you can try during Puja..

It was a playground for kids, a time to get together and be a part of the festivities for the older children. Teenagers would spend time giggling or showing themselves off for the crowd or that special someone.. For the newly weds it would be their first Pujo, for all, young and old, it would be a time to seek the Ma’s blessings and revel in her presence.. and her beautiful divine energy..

Evenings would be spent with family and all would gather at the temple and then go pandal hopping. Once upon a time, Shillong was a great place to be for the Pujas.. its been quiet I think for a while after the politics took over..

I loved the time where the young guys would start dancing with the dhuna..
The drums still echo in my ear and I love to swing to the beat of tak du ma dum …

I can sit through the chantings and the pujas non stop..

The food would be awesome. Having hot kichudi and then watching the program in the evenings…

Then again.. get ready the next morning..

I remember there was a big hullaballu over Kumari Puja..

Then it would be Dashami.. the time would fly in the blink of an eye and it was time to look at the mother’s face via the reflection of the water. And also watch the married ladies play with Shidur.. (vermilion)

It would be a time to say goodbye and well look forward to another Pujo the next year.

Today Pujo is not what it used to be. I do try and keep up the joy and the pace and the excitement.. but its all inside.. and sometimes, its nice to see a crowd in the various Pandals in Bangalore.. but its not the same..

Pujo at home with family and friends and people you know.. off the street and off the corners of the street.. has a poignant joy and nostalgia to it..

A time for giving and receiving, a time to share the divine joy.. and a time to just dance to the rhythm of the feminine divine…

Yes, its always will be and always is the favorite time of the year..  I love the feminine divine and all that she stands for… I bow to you Ma, and seek your blessings.. and welcome you….

May you bless the humanity and take away all our sufferings and help us have a perfect human rebirth again…

I wish all my friends  who worship this deity,  a very Happy Durga Puja :)

Durga Puja in Bangalore :

@ Bangalore Durga Puja cultural programme

Wed 23 Sep ’09, 06:00 pm To Sun 27 Sep ’09. 10:00 pm
Below is a list of programmes by various puja committees & performers.

The puja committees reserve the right for any change/ cancellation in plan due to conditions which are beyond their control.

23rd Sept – Maha Panchami

BENGALI ASSOCIATION (BA)
6PM: Anandamela
8PM: Celebrating 50 Golden Years with NACHIKETA

Sarathi Socio Cultural Trust (SSCT) -Koramangala.
7PM: Anandamela
7.30PM: Musical Programme by SHRISTI

SORRBA
7PM: Anandamela
7.15PM: Cultural program by Porfessional and Amateur member performers and FUN CONTESTS

24th Sept – Maha Shasthi

BENGALI ASSOCIATION (BA)
9PM: Dance programme by the Children of ” Sri Ramana Maharshi Academy for Blinds”

Sarathi Socio Cultural Trust (SSCT) -Koramangala.
10PM: Beats n Melody

SORRBA
8PM:Dandiya & DJ Night

North Bangalore Cultural Samiti (NBCS)
7PM-8PM: Matri Bandana by Piyali Das and group

PURVA Bangalore Cutural Association
Selfish Giant & Amritasya Kanya – Dance programme by children

25th Sept – Maha Saptami

BENGALI ASSOCIATION (BA)
8.30PM: The L’IL Champs of Zee Bangla
SA RE GA MA PA – NIHARIKA, ARPITA , SHUBHANKAR with SHUBHOJIT

Sarathi Socio Cultural Trust (SSCT) -Koramangala.
8PM: Maatir Gaan by Debjani Datta
9PM – Musical by Kohal
10PM -O Hansini – Musical programme

SORRBA
8PM -Sumaner Gaan (performance by KABIR SUMAN)

North Bangalore Cultural Samiti (NBCS)
7.30pm – 8.15pm – Completion of Geetanjali’s 100 years- Rabindrasangeet by Susmita Datta and Ashim Datta.
8.40pm – 9.45pm – Jeebanmukhi Gaan -Avishek Burman (Mohiner Ghoraguli – Kolkata).
10.10pm – 11.30pm – Dance Recital by Manasi Das (Dushari – Kolkata)

PURVA Bangalore Cutural Association
Dance drama’ Shyama’ by members. Performance by ANTARA CHOUDHURY (daughter of Salil and Sabita Choudhury)

26 Sept – Maha Asthami

BENGALI ASSOCIATION (BA)
8pm – Melodious Bangla Adhunik, film and folk Songs by Trinayanee (BABLOO MUKHERJEE and group)

Sarathi Socio Cultural Trust (SSCT) -Koramangala.
9pm – “World of Salilda” by ANTARA CHOUDHURY

SORRBA
9pm onwards – Bollywood Hits by BIJU NAIR and SINCHANDIXIT

North Bangalore Cultural Samiti (NBCS)
7.30pm Peacock Dance,Ganesh Abirbhab Geetinatya and Bengali Folk Dance by Mrs.Kajal Sinha, Mrs Tripti Nath, Aradhana & Group.
9-30pm-Symphony Orchestra and Hindi classical by Dr. Jayanta Das & Group

PURVA Bangalore Cutural Association
Odissi Dance by Sharmila Mukherjee. LIVE performance by LOPAMUDRA MITRA (Kolkata)

27 Sept – Maha Nabami

BENGALI ASSOCIATION (BA)
7-30pm – AURKO rocks the stage
9-30pm – Arati Nritya and Famous Traditional Dhunuchi Nritya competition

Sarathi Socio Cultural Trust (SSCT) -Koramangala.
9pm -Kingfisher Nite – An Enchanting Evening with LOPAMUDRA MITRA(KOLKATA)

SORRBA
9pm onwards – Backbenche-rs Band

North Bangalore Cultural Samiti (NBCS)
8-20 -” O P Tumi Nei Aar”-Tribute to Musical Maestro O P Nayyar, directed by PUSHPENDU GUPTA.
9-40pm- Bouquet of Bengali songs by Ananda Group.

PURVA Bangalore Cutural Association
Dance Performance by Badri (Theatre Boy) Musical performance by SINCHAN and BIJU

Venue details:
BENGALI ASSOCIATION (BA)
Venue: R.B.A.N.M.S Ground, Opp. to Ajanta Talkies, near Ulsoor Lake.

Sarathi Socio Cultural Trust (SSCT) -Koramangala.
Venue: Mangala Kalyan Mantapa, 8th Block, 80ft Road, Opp. Ganesha Temple, next to Aangan Restaurant, Koramangala.

SORRBA
Venue: Sun City Playground (Sarjapur Outer Ring Road Junction)

North Bangalore Cultural Samiti (NBCS)
Venue: Sadhu Maata Hall,4th A Main,12th Cross,Mahalakshmi Layout.

PURVA Bangalore Cutural Association
Venue: VSR Convention Hall,ITPL Road,opp HLL,Brookefields

Other Major Durga Pujas and programmes of Bangalore

Socio-Cultural Association, Indiranagar – Bijoya Dashami programme will be performed by EUPHORIA Band of Dr.PALASH SEN.

Programme schedule of ‘TRINAYANI’ by Babloo Mukherjee and Group – A collection of Immortal and Evergreen old and new Bengali adhunik, film and folk songs.
25.09.09 – SOCIO CULTURAL ASSOCIATION, INDIRA NAGAR
26.09.09 – BENGALI ASSOCIATION, ULSOOR
27.09.09 – JAYMAHAL PUJA COMITEE, BENSON TOWN
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Programme schedule of Mayukh Mazumdar’s performance
24.09.09 – Koramangala Sarathi Forum.
25.09.09- Marathahalli,Munekolala.
26.09.09- Jayamahal Sarbojanin Durga Charitable Samiti, Benson Town.
27.09.09-Koramangala Sarathi Trust.

Pragramme schedule of Debjani datta
· Solo Folk at Sarathi Socio Cultura on Saptami at 6.30 ~ 7.00pm (Matit Gan)
· Program with SBCA children at SBCA at 8~8.20pm on Astami
· Her solo Bengalee Variety at SBCA at 8 ~ 8.30pm on Navami.

Some more:

  1. Jayamahal Sarbajanin Durga Charitable Samiti, Jayamahal Extension, Ladies Club premises.
  2. Socio-Cultural Association Indiranagar, Defence Colony Playground, 6th Main, between Indiranagar 100ft Rd and 80 ft Rd.
  3. Sarathi Forum, Koramangala, Munureddy Kalayan Mantap, 80 ft Rd, 6th Block, Koramangala
  4. Probashi Association, Malleswaram Canara Union Hall 8th Main, 13th Cross, Malleshwaram
  5. South Bangalore Cultural Association, J.P.Nagar Puja, opp.to Bannerghata Road Shopper’s Stop.
  6. Whitefield Cultural Association, Chetan Building Besides Whitefield police station, close to Nilgiris.
  7. RT Nagar Sarbojanin Durga Puja Samiti, Sai Baba Mandir, HMT Layout, Anand Nagar Next to RT Nagar Bus depot.
  8. Antaranga Bengali Cultural Association, Sanjay Nagar puja. Its Sanay Nagar Main Rd through Ganganahalli, close to Food World.
  9. Banaswadi Bengali Cultural Union, Sitaram Kalan Mantap, Banaswadi Main Road, Near Uttam Sagar
  10. Murugeshpalya (Air Force) Wind Tunnel Road
  11. Air Force Command Hospital, Near Ulsoor
  12. Air Force Training Command, Mekhri Circle, Bellary Road.
  13. Air Force Station – Jalahalli West.
  14. Airforce Station – Jalahalli East.
  15. Munekolal Marathahalli Durga Puja. Near Marathahalli Bridge.
  16. Kagadaspura Durga Puja, 29th Cross, Janajeeva Nest, near SCT College.

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