Blissful rains

Its been raining on and off and its fun welcoming all that..

But the drainage system is too clogged nowadays and my apt easily gets flooded with short spates of rain.

I was thinking as I was looking out of the window admiring rain… how life has rolled along..

From the days of struggling to establish an identity to living a life of joyful bonhomie of a couple life to a stage where we come around a circle with our families.

Now life is still good with its ups and downs but we have my parents living with us as they are too old to take care of themselves.

I always had this picture in my mind of them very capable.

But across the years I have seen them age and though I know the reality and all that, its still difficult to accept them as aged and needing aid in many things which we take for granted.

Mom loves to read newspapers with a magnifying glass as her sight is very weak. She loves keeping upto date with what is happening all over the world and then making sure I know about it over the breakfast table.

She knows she needs to eat 20 mins after her insulin, yet when she gets the chance she quickly puts a bite into her mouth when I am not looking..

When I am cross with her, she gives me this absolute charming smile that melts my heart and forget my ire.

Dad has to wash all the utensils before we eat. He has to have certain food in a certain way. Dad does not eat Bitter gourd on some days. He is against eating salad in the nights. Says its bad for digestion. Dad loves walking and that is helping him get to know people.

Dad has had his lower teeth removed and its painful for him to chew. Like a kid, he makes faces and makes me smile. I am waiting till I can get dentures for him..

Dad loves going out and I have to make it a point to take  him out in the evenings when I can.

Its like the old days when he used to come from office and take me shopping. Now its the other way round.

There was a time when I used to wait for my Dad and Mom to come from office and tell me things..

Now they wait for us to come home and talk to them about things..

Its like I am coming a full circle. And I feel old sometimes and well its time to age gracefully too with all the responsibilities and duties that goes forth as one ages…

Sigh, it took me a while to accept that they cannot do everything on their own and these two souls who were pillars of strength for me have now been looking to me for the same…

I just wish I can measure up to their expectations. Sometimes it looms large upon me. Then I think I will take it one day at a time.

Till I roll back.. have a great weekend..